Today was weird, I met Shawn's mate and he creeped me out a Little. It was weird cos he was so much like Shawn, but he was ruder and his jokes more Vulgar. But still they were kind of a like. I don't know why but ever joke that Shawn told made me fall more in love but Every joke Ian told made me think he was more of a prick. I don't know why but Even though the jokes were as bad as each other's but for some reason Shawn's were funny and charming. I actually felt like the miles between us didn't matter. But then even the first line to the convo was "Shawn likes you" and I know that he did not know me and Shawn were going out and at that point I think my heart shattered into tiny pieces. I know that he loves me I really do but it is annoying when he won't tell anyone. Like when his computer got moved to the lounge and he could not say the cute things like "I love you" or "I miss you" and things like that. But I was shouting it from the rooftops when he said I love you for the first time.

I know that him and Hannah are over but I wonder if he does have A girlfriend back where he lives, not miles away. I Just want to let everyone know we are in love, then deal with the heart break when or if that comes. Like I want the guild to know, even though I am sure a few people have figured it out. I want him to tell his friends just like I have told mine. Maybe I am asking to much but when he said I love you after the whole thing with Hannah he said that the reason he was so distant was he thought it was weird, but he noticed that he could not love Hannah when he still loved me. He said the only reason he did it was because he thought it was weird the way we met. But Not telling his parents, or his mates makes me wonder if he has got over that, or if in fact he still thinks it is weird