So it is another day, another day that i'm falling for more in love. I have never been so happy, so lovesick that I am freaking others out. Before Shawn I never knew love, some would say that I still wouldn't but I disagree, without the way we met He would never have given me a second chance, I would not be myself, it would be an act that I put on. I don't turn heads as I walk down streets, most ask me out as a joke or to see if when they dumped me to see if they shattered my heart, meaning I never really got attached as I knew in someway that it would only be a few days or weeks before they would dump me, or if I got to the punch first, I would dump them. I guess that is why me and Shawn are so different, because he did not ask me out as some joke to him and his mates, but 'cos he really did like me and perhaps even love me, but never as much as we do now. On the same night I started this blog we stayed up all night talking and it has brought us so close, I know more about him in those 12 hours then I have everyday since I started talking to him. I know that he thinks some of it was destiny, that we were meant to find each other and if we didn't meet when we did we would of met sometime later. I think that some of it might have been destiny but I think we needed to want to be together, we wanted to keep trying, dropping subtle hints that we liked each other.

I know that with every second that goes by I miss him, I want to be with him as the only place that feels safe, like home, is when he is wrapping me up in his words protecting me from the world that breaks so many hearts. I just want to be with him, I want to be there (I realise that sounds kinda stalkerish) But I do, I don't want to miss a moment because if I do I will miss a moment of the most wonderful thing ever, him and the love that we have.