I don't know what to write...I guess I could go on about random things in the world that I don't agree with or that I feel I need to voice my opinion on, but can't, that and don't want to. I have decided that instead i'm going to explain...

We met on World of Warcraft, an online role playing game. I was a dwarf priest and he was a hunter, that sounds like some enchanted fairy tale but when you hear about the twats in Stormwind city u soon learn it isn't. We were in the same guild and he had his best mate, nellas. A 16 year old girl. I then had to go away for a weekend and the guild fell apart and I stupidly blamed him. There was a big fight and that was over. I don't really remember what happened after that. I can remember when he said "i love you", I was questing in Netherstorm and he whispered me says "lyl" I don't do much msn talk so I just put back a few question marks and he would not tell me. I later found out what it was and me being me asked if he truly meant it, he said he would tell me when I had to go. He never did tell me, "If it is true I love you forever and if not your playing cruel games with my breaking heart" and signed off. We left it at that really, the next time we talked was the same as the others, Shawn seemed to get distant, he did not joke like he used to. I knew that he and his family were going through some problems so I just guessed it was that but when they got over it he still remained the same. I was on MSN with him and he told me what had happened. About how he loved Hannah and how he wanted her, almost forgeting about me. I wanted to ask if he still cared for me but I knew he was happy with Hannah and I was sort of happy for him. I mean I would of done anything to make him happy even if it meant I was not with him I would have done it.

Then we were talking late one night and he was crying, no matter what I said or did he still cried. I was so worried. He signed off without another word and I knew that he didn't want to talk about it, not right now. So I left it, melting my brain, eating away at me. When he signed in the next day I didn't know what to say. He later told me that Hannah and himself had broken up. I was sad for him and Hannah but I knew what he would do next, talk to me about "us". I wanted so badly to just admit everything, about how I loved him, how I was so hurt that he didn't think about me when he was going out with Hannah. I spoke carefully, not wanting to allow my heart to break again. He then asked me out and I agreed. That is where my story ends, well that chapter at least.